yah *sigh* 864 life paralysis really really really really really try to think how different would ya life be if you never knew me lets say myself i was gonna kill how would you really feel you might feel sadness but it's not like it would last in fact, i feel you would forget about me pretty fuckin fast im just bein real im just bein honest so dont try to call me selfish cause im tired of the suffer they say what doesnt kill you only make you tougher well i disagree im sick of all this bullshit tryna kill me depression is a bitch you can call me all the names and shit but remember im no longer feelin sick my only solution is a fuckin bullet so you know i took it you could say i blew it and dont fuckin worry if ima kill myself i would let you all know before the bloodshed bloodshed bloodshed bloodshed i let my anxiety get the best of me but the best of me is the worst of me and that's the rest of me i planned to kill myself at the age of 25 but then i met a girl and she kept me alive but now im 26 and she's not by my side im not pointing fingers on some bullshit because i know she deserves happiness and shouldnt have to deal with this im just negative bitch im not tryna make amends or offend all my friends ima just defend my life comin to an end ran out of energy tryna sell my soul for a better me what the fuck does that even mean how the fuck am i suppose to chase my dreams when i cant even fall asleep now im out seeking sanity and the man i planned to be isnt what you see i wanna stay strong (stay strong) but it feels wrong (feels wrong) if this is my future i dont wanna grow old and i try to mature with everything im told (x2) i let my anxiety get the best of me but the best of me is the worst of me and that's the rest of me that's the rest of me that's the rest of me

pierce through the chest and ya left with the rest i was used to the love now im used to the pain and i pray to above that i feel again an understatement is heartbroken if youre comin back like i dont know man forever promised where's ya comeuppance now youre feelin nervous dont need to nitpick play in the furnace really could burn shit it's my turn bitch down with the house leave ash on the ground i said down with the house til there's nothin left but the ash on the ground and the flames are forming all around see the look on my face there's no panic cause im damaged fall to grace what a waste of space good times dont excuse the bad times after years of being apart you abandoned and you shot just like that, i was hit now im in the mode im feelin panic panic panic panic panic panic panic you shot me with a fuckin crowbar and it went through my fuckin broke heart you shot me with a fuckin crowbar and it went through my fuckin broke heart (x2) pinky but without a brain wheel in my head and it's driving me insane left on read did you even read what i said always promised stay on topic and just drop it dont need to nitpick play in the furnace burn shit it's my turn bitch down with the town leave ash on the ground i said down with the town til there's nothing left but the ash on the ground and the flames are forming all around there's no look on my face there's no panic cause im damaged fall to grace what a waste of empty space you shot me with a fuckin crowbar and it went through my fuckin broke heart you shot me with a fuckin crowbar and it went through my fuckin broke heart (x2)

fuck every single day it feels the same way i just wanna wake up and not feel today and it always seems i never have a say with the demons in my head they love to play every single day it never goes my way i dont wanna wake up, just turn decay but like i said i never have a say im just here to fuck it like i never had to fuck it up she promised infinity but all i got was an end of me with a fist full of pills she my biggest enemy askin for my props again runnin outta oxygen countin all my dirty sins why the fuck is suicide such a selfish act but makin me suffer is just where it's at i just wanna live not another day i dont know what the fuck to say poppin pills to heal the feels poppin pills to feel the thrills poppin pills to kill the spiels fuck fuck it up every single day it feels the same way i just wanna wake up and not feel today and it always seems i never have a say with the demons in my head they love to play (x2) every single day it never goes my way i dont wanna wake up, just turn decay but like i said i never have a say im just here to fuck it like i never had to fuck it up i just wanna fuck i just wanna fuck i just wanna fuck shit up i just wanna fuck shit up (x2) fuck suicide has always been on my mind the battery in my brain is runnin low but thanks to all the pain it is feelin slow runnin outta time, im just runnin outta time (x4) every single day it feels the same way i just wanna wake up and not feel today and it always seems i never have a say with the demons in my head they love to play every single day it never goes my way i dont wanna wake up, just turn decay but like i said i never have a say im just here to fuck it like i never had to fuck it up (x2)

when i hit some bitches up you know exactly what they say "wtf you wantin boi i aint got the time to play" ima fuck her like in ever did but i wish i could the only girl willing to look into my eyeballs is Medusa but i swear she just tryna take my soul i wish to seduce her rip in half her pussy hole like a piece of tissue i wanna misuse her feelings until she tells me i miss you if i had a bigger dick i could fuck you all fuckin louder than rainstorm wishin i could bring the pain more woodcock on the block wish to hit it in a parkin lot you dont even gotta let me penetrate im okay with suckin tiddies i would never hate if youre ever with me i will be your biggest simp bend me over get the suit of a gimp make me walk with a limp get a glimpse of your face on a blimp met this bitch on snapchat (snapchat) was too nervous to get erect (get erect) so after a bit she left and im thinkin what is next but she never came back and after a week of bein left on seen i was blocked so no cuddles or top on my cock what the fuck is goin on why these bitches never loyal if you come back swear to treat you like royal cute girl workin at Walmart follow her around with a shoppin cart until i find the courage just to say hi but they mustve been out cause im leaving goodbye goodbye goodbye i love hard kisses and cuddles girl dont be far live my personal bubble Sean Kingston he said it best that's a beautiful girl I wanna kill myself met a trans bitch and she brought out the cuffs i sucked on her cock till the last cum drop but that's still not enough lets just say my face aint the only thing ghosted i told my friends about it and they roasted i dont even give a fuck it happens tie me on up cause im down with the trappin my imagination comin up with a lot of dumb shit im just yappin yeah im just yappin im just yappin no cuddle buddy no quick nutty searchin day n night you can call me Kid Cudi i say i dont care but lets be real forever alone is my biggest fear i wanna be shown make it clear i am someones own spendin all my time on the phone with the one that didnt shun even when im dead and gone but until then you can call me Mr Lonely

you was heartless comin outta darkness i could say you a bitch but you was barkless you threw me to the fuckin side like a piece of carcass why you got my inside feelin like most pit pullin up in a whip tryna whip out my dick and suck it up what the fuck you thought this was you a THOT ass main in my thought ass brain all you bring is pain you the Batman to my Bane if you aint stuck with me then dont fuck with me if you aint stuck with me then dont fuck with me why you wanna fuck with me (x2) no positivity could ever make you laugh no positivity could ever bring you back maybe one day i can find the one but until then i plan to stay alone i really needed light but all you brought was dark shit why you didnt lock this when you had a chance bitch (bitch) im no prize but im better than them other guys fuck your disguise when im bringin up yo other lies if you aint stuck with me then dont fuck with me if you aint stuck with me then dont fuck with me why you wanna fuck with me (x2) gimmie a hand out this Hell here's my plan, cast a spell ade due damballa gimmie the power i beg of ya (x2) if you aint stuck with me then dont fuck with me if you aint stuck with me then dont fuck with me why you wanna fuck with me (x2)

i could die tomorrow and you wouldnt even know you wouldnt even care turn away from the flare you said i wasnt there but im blowing up your phone night and day now im alone cause that pushed you away you was living with your ex and that added lots of stress but i thought i was next couldnt think of the mess or prepare for a test like X over Y and now youre with the guy that would make ya fuckin cry every other fuckin night i cant deal with this pain so im calling it quits you can say im out the game i just couldnt level up and now i feel stuck im out of EXP time to set my mind free you was my forever but now youre just never you was clever with your words but forgot about the birds shit gets around when youre fuckin with them clowns when youre done with abuse you can have this fuckin noose just dont try to misuse like you did with my love double knotted up you can fly like a dove that was uncalled for but so was your ex calling you a dumb whore the night you had sex let me take the time to explain every dime that i spent on the pain what a waste of fuckin change and i know it's hella strange thought I'd get somethin back somethin like love somethin like that or at least a fucking hug but instead i got jack shit cause you rather have whack dick in-between your lips than to have somethin real somethin you can fell you want somethin to forget and somethin to regret like a one night stand but that's still not short enough how about a minute and now it's getting tough cause there's no way to spend it you will your clothes off and he will do whatever but now that he's soft youre not feelin much better cause there's nothin to remember now youre feelin all alone lost like bitch without a fuckin bone gotta be passionate while youre smashing it stop stop being wild and learn how to smile what is happiness all you got is flappy tits i could go on forever but you wouldnt listen ima pull the lever just to stop all the bitchin ima move along to my throne and sit upon to what your pawns you would run from my lawn i was the one but you wanted fun so now you got none cause im done i am done

i just wanna cuddle with your bitch yeah i just wanna cuddle cuddle cuddle i just wanna cuddle with your bitch (yeah give her cuddles) im not even tryna get her dick (give her dick no) im just lookin for support and love (yeah support and love) why the fuck these bitches wanna fuck (what the fuck fuck) (x2) i dont know what im lookin for in a girl theyre just all so wonderful bring your girl to my bedroom but she keep her clothes on i just wanna fuckin spoon ever seen them wholesome memes life is a nightmare but your girl is a dream and i got her bouncing on my dick oo SIKE she aint doin that shit not tonight i dont know what it is but ever since these bitches learn that i can spit they just want my fuckin dick but i dont wanna give em it i prefer them hugs and kisses and this may seem a lil gayish but i dont wanna see your tits and the only cheeks i wanna kiss are found up on your pretty face so come and kick it at my place can i put on Netflix without you havin thoughts of havin sex pls stop biting on my neck these documentaries are so lit you should pay attention bc there might be a quiz get the fuck off me bitch i just wanna cuddle with your bitch (yeah give her cuddles) im not even tryna get her dick (give her dick no) im just lookin for support and love (yeah support and love) why the fuck these bitches wanna fuck (what the fuck fuck) (x2)

banana phone ringing put it close to ya dome you know what im thinking im just tryna bring ya home forbidden fruit pop cherries til i die girl you is loot see the scars in the sky (x2) sick of having dreams of you and me sick of all these memories i wish they would just fade away cause i know it will never be forget her name man i wish i could all i do is claim when im running outta goods fuck coming back leave that shit back in the past blowing out a dandelion wish to have wings i could take you flying wish to be king goddamn im trying are you selling cause im buying i am failing heart so cold it's like im skiing i try to hold but i am pleading just let go just let go just let go banana phone ringing put it close to ya dome you know what im thinking im just tryna bring ya home forbidden fruit pop cherries til i die girl you is loot see the scars in the sky (x2) love's hard to find it's trapped in my mind but then i saw you and i started to climb all the way to the tippidy top and i promise to never stop until you are mine this mountain tall pray to God i dont fall unless it's in love with someone like you i hear them wedding bells and ill say i do 11:11 make a i wish i wish to see you in Heaven i vent and i vent over shootign stars wish to be far away like Mars ill come back the day you tell me what im meant blow out the candles why am wishing for false hopes cant find the air i start to choke why dont you care banana phone ringing put it close to ya dome you know what im thinking im just tryna bring ya home forbidden fruit pop cherries til i die girl you is loot see the scars in the sky (x2)

i wouldnt cry if you died tonight (die tonight) (x3) why would i cry why the fuck would i cry ima have to testify all the lies ya left up in my mind you was never into me that's a flawless victory with all this Hennessey at the bottom of the bottle pushing throttle now you wanna twaddle what's your fuckin problem get out of my head get the fuck away from me better off with you dead you said it was love for sure but i wasnt enough or you were just bored and now im left torn i had better luck with porn i was left feelin stupid and simply sorry for seeking help from and empty body i wish you never did exist as in like you were never here because your happiness became my biggest fear i wouldnt cry if you died tonight (die tonight) (x3) why would i cry why the fuck would i cry you had a good dude that would put up with your attitude but now you got nothing but a fuckin tomb im lost in tears and left in fears with all these memories you felt with me of you being here why do i care why do you not why do i care is cause youre hot (fuck) home is where the heart is but the heart is in the fucking gutter and you ate it all up i cant believe it's not butter why would it be why cant you see you loving me is just a memory i wouldnt cry if you died tonight (die tonight) (x3) why would i cry why the fuck would i cry you were playing games probably thought I'd do the same ima need a shovel just to get down to your level ima have to bury deep thinking more than six feet then maybe i can get some sleep now promise not to speak you were reckless and careless forgetting me like breakfast but always acting precious i was used and abused mentally bruised love to you was just a word im feeling so crazy put your face on that curb i love you baby

let it rain drown on me blow me away like im caught in the wind let it rain drown on me i feel no pain when you set me free why you actin like you never sent nudes why you actin like im just old news why you actin like i didnt cut the noose just for you can we leave the past in the past take away the mistakes they didnt have to last im just tryna getcha back but that back is outta whack like scoliosis i didnt wanna separate that's mitosis let out the floodgates cause im sick of all the hate like im the worst kind of man out of all of mankind a mind like mine is hard to find feelin intertwined with a sickness like swine take another leap and i fall when i climb fake another peep it was my suicide i sow what you reap now step aside my heart you can along with my pride let it rain drown on me blow me away like im caught in the wind let it rain drown on me i feel no pain when you set me free (x2)

livin on a sinkin ship trapped in my mind and if you got the time gimmie one busy day and i can show you what it feels like to wanna sail away wanna sail away do you wanna sail away livin on a sink ship trapped in my mind and if you got the time gimmie one busy day and i can show you what if feels like to wanna sail away do you wanna are you gonna wanna i dont mean to be stuck i dont mean to feel trapped i dont mean to fall in this bottomless pit guess im outta luck i forgot to pack a map surviving on nothing but the taste of my spit you say youre sick of this planet like you cant stand it so lets move to Jupiter (ha) i know that sounds stupiter (damn) but you already take my oxygen so i think it's only fair no need to play pretend like you really care i wont even shoot a flare i dont wanna be rescued you really dont understand the pain that it takes to love you all the fuckin pain that i go through sitting in the rain ima let it flow through ima let it flow through ima let it flow like im livin on a sinkin ship trapped in my mind and if you got the time gimmie one busy day and i can show you what it feels like to wanna sail away wanna sail away do you wanna sail away livin on a sink ship trapped in my mind and if you got the time gimmie one busy day and i can show you what if feels like to wanna sail away do you wanna are you gonna livin on sinkin ship trapped in mind and if you got the time gimmie one busy day and i can show you what it feels like to wanna sail away who who who are you tell me what is make believe why tryna make me leave i wont be the tree that collapsed on the love that i built from the ground up and it's time i round up all the times i broke down showing no bound you misunderstood all the love and all the hate that i takes just to manipulate this thought process of not going nowhere soon i take all the stress wrapped in a cacoon will i come out beautiful like butterfly or would i rot away and just die will i rot away and just die will i rot away and just die will i come out beautiful like a butterfly or would i rot away and just die will i rot away and just die say i come out beautiful and still rot away say i come out beautiful and still rot away (say i come out beautiful and still)